its been an upsetting weekend…
On Saturday morning…an old friend of mine had a cardiac arrest and past away. I can’t really describe how I feel, other than upset and in shock. I’ve only cried twice but everytime I think about it…I get more and more upset and the tears build up. I know Erin wouldn’t have wanted us to be upset…I know she’s happy wherever she is…but I can’t help it. I know shes with her mom in heaven, or wherever we go when we pass. I know Erin wouldn’t want us to mourn, be upset, or any of that. I’m still in complete shock and I feel like nothing is real. I found out late saturday night and was completely numb when I found out. Erin and I haven’t hung out in years…but her and I had good times in the past….I can’t explain the true feelings I have about this. Upset, shock, anger, and feelings that I don’t know the name for.
I was taught to never ask “why do bad things happen to good people?” because the world is full of bastard covered bastards with bastard cream filling. Life is a romance. Its good at the beginning, and ends awful. We all have a terminal illness. Its called birth.
Goodnight.
